The same date every year, the same protagonist but the different plot.

Tomorrow will be my 23th birthday. I really want to say something special for it, because I'm so different from the girl one year ago.

My boss once said I'm one of those who are thinking too much of themselves. So at this moment, I want to change my life, I want to look at people around me, and I want to thank them.

I want to thank my parents: thank you for giving me the opportunity to enjoy my colorful life.

I want to thank my friends: thank you for providing me assistance (and those presents, I really like them).

I don't know whether I can be a success but I will try my best to be a happy girl because I know that is what they want me to be.

Best wishes to those who love me and whom I love.

For I don't know whether there will be anyone who remembers my birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself, hehe~~

 

It seems that I'm at the moment of decision of my life, what is different is if you were standing on the crossroads you have at least one choice, but I haven't got any of choices.

Sometimes when I am alone, I feel excited about leaving college and entrance to society; sometimes I feel frightened because of the uncertainty of my future. I usually suffer from insomia recently, maybe it can be seen as a symble of maturity, maybe it is a compulsory stage of growing up. Anyway I'm experiencing it and I hope it can pass as soon as possible.

Humen are strange creature: you feel tied if your job is hard, but if there is nothing you can do, you will feel miserable. Then it will be worse. Unfortunately, I'm in the second condition.

I believe there is no saviour this time. I must save myself. I'm not sure whether I can or not, but as I have to, I will try my best so as to avoid any regret. Recently I am immersing myself in PRISON BREAK for what I need now is courage. I hope I can become more brave and brave enough before I am defeated by the frustrations coming soon.

Tomorrow I will be on the train taking me back home!

My mood is a little complicated: happy but also nervious. I don't know why. Maybe I have been used to staying at one place lonely, so when the moment of gathering comes I'm still not ready yet.

Anyway, it should be a happy thing to meet my mama and papa again. I love this old couple. Hehe, they are always ready to help me solve my personal problems, both material and psychologic ones, any problem appearring in my life. They are mystical in my eyes, because it seems there are no problems they can't deal with. So I really want to say THANK YOU to them and also to my Father for making me be their daughter.

Look forward to the coming happy holiday...

I have just finished watching a movie, named the pursuit of happiness, with Will Smith as the main actor. It's a story about how a poor guy turned to be a success. I should say that Will's performance is perfect. I know this is not his story( because he becomes an actor instead of a stock broker, and this  movie is said to be inspaired by a true story) but he performs it as his own life--true and moving.

I don't know whether it is still the real situation in America that everyone is owning his dream and trying his best to make it come true. Great changes have taken place after all. People today seem much disappointed to the society and to their life. And with the feel of disencouragement nobody will pick up their dreams or pursue their marvelous ideals.  After seeing this movie, however, I'm full of passion not because it ensures me that people still own their dreams but for one sence of Will impresses me: happiness is something to be pursued.

It seems to be telling me some truth:

         what you want is waiting for you on the way of your pursuit.

Maybe it's just because I'm worried too much about results, I miss a lot.

I also have my dream although it's not so great as those who are famous, but I think I still have the chance to feel the same happiness they have felt in the process of pursuing their dreams, because I will pursue mine.

Never say you can't; people would like to say you can't because they can't, but you should not say so. You can, and I can. If there is something you want, just go for it.

I'm not very well recently, feeling dizzy day after day, having no appetite, and being in bad mood. I don't know why!! It should be a period of wonderful time after the examination because I can relax myself completely. However, the real situation seems to be not the same. Maybe it's because my nerve has been tight for such a long time that I need a longer period of time to relax it; Maybe my body is accusing against me for the over-using it in the past several months; Maybe it's just because I have forgotten how to get myself out of the nervous feeling.

No reason, no resolution! It's really annoying!! What should I do!!!

It has been a long time since my last dairy. It seems that I just turn a round then life has become so busy. I am busy with preparing for the entrance examination for graduate student; I am busy with the last final examination of my college life; and also I am busy with being on diet for lossing weight, haha...

Life is such a beautiful one and so colourful that even when I am mad for trifles I am still enjoying the happyness all of them bring to me. I believe that is the reason why I cherish my life.

To be honest, I don't know what will happen in the coming year. Love? Success? Loss? Happyness or sadness? I totally don't know. However, I still feel exciting when it is coming. I myself don't like venture, but the challenges can still excite my nerves.

At the special moment, I mean the start point of the new year, I would like to write down my mood here and my best wishes to myself: hope everything goes well this year and with my endeavor, all of my dreams will turn to become true!ing

Beijing was attacked by a heavy rain last night. I was struggling in the heavy rain last night.

I haven't experienced such an experience for a long time since I entred the university. On the way back to my dormitory, I thought a lot. Maybe that is life: you have to work for dear life in order to survive in this society; you have to devote yourself to a meaningless position so as to make a living. I don't how many people there are sunk by the heavy rain last night, to be the lucky one, I was among them because of my destiny instead of livelihood.

The rain seemed to surge from all distances pouring into my eyes, my nose, and my mouth. When I was in the rain, I remembered my dream: to be a special but popular lady. I always say that why the dream is dream is because it is really hard to become true. However, at that time, when I was almost swallowed by the heavy rain, I realized suddenly that the gloomy actually is as insignificant as what you boast. That's because life is what you do not what you say (quoted from Sweetbox's Life Is Cool). Therefore, I have decided that from now on, I won't make any promises. If there is a chance what I prefer to do will be to catch it not to tell people I want it; if there is a failure what I prepare to do will be to choke the following similar mistakes not to complain to the others about the unreal hypothesis; if there is a lucky success what I must do will be to seek ahead for the next one not to brag about yesterday's glory.

The reason for all of these is because life itself is a continuous process, like a river, so the best way for us to enjoy life is to throw ourselves into the running river instead of staying at a port.

Several days ago, I downloaded and installed this new product of MSN named Windows Live-- I like to try new things, but to be honest I'm not so satisfied with this one. The colour of the background looks a bit strange as well as the pattern. What is your opinion? Mine? At least I'm still not used to these changes.

OK, no matter how great the space changes, it shouldn't influence my mood.

I have taught the Korean uncle--Mr. Cui Chinese for almost a month. Actually the job is not so easy as it sounds. However, the process is very pleasant. Mr. Cui is an earnest person, and eager to learn Chinese, so he always co-operates with me as much as possible. The only problem is that what he knows now are too little for him to express his thoughts clearly. But I should say compared with the first week, he has made great progresses these days.Occasionally he speaks out a long paragraph in Chinese, although there are some order mistakes, in my opinion, that is very surprising! Mr. Cui is a very lovely person--maybe this adjective isn't suitable to an adult, but I cannot find another word more suitable to him. When he can't answer my question--in most situation he knows the meaning but can't express it in Chinese--he usually appears like a child, for example, scratching his head, scrubbing sweat with his cloth and so on. Every time I see him appearing like this, I can't help missing my father--another lovely 'old man'. 

Besides Mr. Cui, I am also teaching another Korean girl named Lisa English. She is 16-year-old, active and happy girl. I think her father is quite busy, because I haven't met her father since our first lesson. I guess he must be a very strict father, because he has oranged three tutors for this little girl in a 10-day holiday.Too horrible! Fortunately, Lisa's personal temperament is very good. In our lesson, she always appears actively and tries her best to co-operate with me. This week will be the last one for us to learn English together, and then she will go back to Korean. I'm sure I will miss her. Because of the little girl I aware of there are still a lot of interesting things in this world waiting for me to discover them and decorating my life.

Thanks to this summer holiday! Although the weather in Beijing is vile enough to distroy my life, yet, those colorful and wonderful experiences make it be reborn. So I should say thank you to Mr.Cui and Lisa. 

 

I don't know whether I am becoming lazier and lazier or I have less and less to say. Every time I make my decision to write something, I only find it is hard to write my feelings out.

Now I am in my summer holiday. This may be my last summer holiday unless I will continue my graduate study or become a teacher next year. And this is also the first summer holiday in which I don't go home. Staying in Beijing, finding a part-time job and learning something are my plans for this special holiday. Now I have found a part-time job but haven't started my study.

This job isn't new for me. It's something like Chinese tutor which I have done a lot before. However, I should admit that the challenge is new. Different from my previous students this time my student is a 52-year-old gentleman(it is not exaggerate at all to call him gentleman), a Korean government employee. The reason why I said he was different isn't because his is at the same age with my father, but because he can say very little Chinese. It's very difficult to explain a new word to a person in a languege he doesn't know. That is the special point. Fortunately, his English should be pretty good(I guess so). So...although I am forbidden to speak English, I can use it if necessary...stestealthily, of course, kaka...

This job is very hard, but I will try my best to complete it well. I don't know when I will come to the end but I hope will the end comes both of us will be satisfied with each other.

When I am tapping these words I remember my friends, wondering what they are busy with and how are they. Anyway I hope all of us will have a happy and significant summer holiday.  

Today I change the background of my space. The reason is quite simple: the summer has come. Personally speaking, I don't like summer because it is too hot to be bared especially in such a place as Beijing. However, summer should be a happy and enjoyable season because of the summer holiday. This background seems to be suitable to this season.

 

Visiting the space of one of my friend, I fell into thought again. It's a bit hard for me to understand why there are always so many miserible or sentimental experiences. It is not to say that I have no alike experiences, but I'm still not used to note them down. According to my theory, now that those are unhappy memory why we rip open the old wound time and time again. It is not amusing at all. Life is not so easy. That is the truth. Therefore, I prefer to focus on the happiness I have experiensed. Am I wrong?

People are always seeking for the true love. However, it seems that few people can really get it. Actually, the true love is in our own hearts. It means that we should know how to love the others loyally firstly. Maybe we can learn something from the following terms. 

 

 

英文字母的爱情信条

  
A--accpect(接受）     世上没有十全十美的人。
B--belief(信任）  互相猜度的爱情只会分手。
C--care（关心） 打个电话或者发个短信令对方暖在心头。
D--digest（理解） 当情绪起伏的时候，忍耐和安慰对方。
E--enjoy（欣赏） 欣赏这段爱情带给你的开心、幸福。
f--freedom（自由）  给与对方自由和隐私的空间。
G--give（付出）  付出才会有收获。
H--heart（真心） 真心对待，用心去爱。
I--independence（独立） 不要过分依赖对方，首先要做自己。
J--jealousy（嫉妒） 适当的嫉妒表示对对方的重视。
K--kiss（吻）  轻轻的一吻代表你的爱。
L--love（爱）  愿意为爱人做任何事，这是最高境界。
M--mature（成熟） 人成熟一点，你的爱情便会开花结果。
N--nature（自然） 不做作，流于自然的爱情才能细水长流。
O--observe（观察） 经常细心观察爱人的喜好，这份心意比礼物更珍重。
P--protect（保护） 保护对方的尊严，不允许别人中伤、侮辱你的另一半。
Q--quarter（宽容）  以宽容的态度对待对方。
R--receive（接受）  接受对方善意的批评。
S--share（分享）   与对方分享喜乐与哀愁。
T--tender（温柔）  爱让我们变得温柔。
U--understand（体谅）  多站在对方的立场将心比心地想。
V--veracity（诚实）  互相欺骗的爱情又怎能天长地久呢？
W--wait（等待）  最重要的是一起进步，走完这段路。
X--"X"（乘法符号）  对彼此的爱每天以倍数相乘。
Y--yearn（想念）   爱你在心口难开。
Z--zest（热情）  适当的热情能增添不少乐趣。

This is my favorite Garfield~~he said :"


Money is not everything. There"s Mastercard & Visa.
          钞票不是万能的,有时还需要信用卡.
        
 One should love animals. They are so tasty.
          每个人都应该热爱动物,因为它们很好吃.
         
Save water. Shower with your girlfriend.
          要节约用水,尽量和女友一起洗澡.
        
 Love the neighbor. But don"t get caught.
          要用心去爱你的邻居,不过不要让她的老公知道.
   
  Behind every successful man, there is a "man". And behind every unsuccessful man, there are two.
      每个成功男人的背后,都有一个女人. 每个不成功男人的背后, 都有两个.
    
Every man should marry. After all, happiness is not the only thing in life.
          再快乐的单身汉迟早也会结婚,幸福不是永久的嘛.
   
The wise never marry, And when they marry they become otherwise.
          聪明人都是未婚的,结婚的人很难再聪明起来.
   
Success is a relative term. It brings so many relatives.
          成功是一个相关名词,他会给你带来很多不相关的亲戚（联系).
   
 Never put off the work till tomorrow what you can put off today.
          不要等明天交不上差再找借口, 今天就要找好.
   
 Love is photogenic. It needs darkness to develop.
          爱情就象照片,需要大量的暗房时间来培养.
   
 Children in backseats cause accidents. Accidents in backseats cause children.
          后排座位上的小孩会生出意外, 后排座位上的意外会生出小孩.
    
 Your future depends on your dreams." So go to sleep.
          "现在的梦想决定着你的将来",所以还是再睡一会吧.
   
  There should be a better way to start a day than waking up every morning.
          应该有更好的方式开始新一天,而不是千篇一律的在每个上午都醒来.
     
Hard work never killed anybody." But why take the risk?
          努力工作不会导致死亡!不过我不会用自己去证明.
      
 Work fascinates me." I can look at it for hours!
          工作好有意思耶!尤其是看着别人工作.
        
 God made relatives; Thank God we can choose our friends.
          神决定了谁是你的亲戚,幸运的是在选择朋友方面他给了你留了余地.
     
 When two"s company, three"s the result!
          两个人的状态是不稳定的,三个人才是!
      
A dress is like a barbed fence. It protects the premises without restricting the view.
          服饰就象铁丝网,它阻止你冒然行动但并不妨碍你尽情的观看.
     
 The more you learn, the more you know, The more you know, the more you forget.The more you forget, the less you know. So why bother to learn.
          学的越多,知道的越多, 知道的越多,忘记的越多, 忘记的越多,知道的越少, 为什么学来着?

Today i watched a movie named "light blue and dark blue"(浅蓝深蓝)(i don't know whether it can be translated in this way) I was moved deeply by this movie. Because it reminded me something happened in my childhood. Before i watched this movie i used to considered many of experieces i had in the kindergadern as very puerile ones. After watching this movie, however, i found that what i do now actually is  more childish. I don't know whether you have the similar experiences. I am still not used to expressing my own, true feelings. I always believe that it is one of the most difficult task in my life. Maybe the action itself is not so difficult but what makes it more difficult is you have to persuade yourself to be brave enough to tell the truth. What's more, the older you are, the more difficult it is. You can find a lot of excuses to explain why you can't do that, for example, you have to take other people's feelings into concern or you have to think about the consequence. But i should say that the feeling is really wonderful when you try to say what you mean out once in a while. Just as Douding's mother said, "Speaking the secret in your heart makes you feel comfortable"   

My classmate laughed at me by saying that this kind of movie is  for kids, but i don't think so. In many occasions adults can learn a lot from  children. What the adults call as "puerile" actually is a honest attitude towards life. So i have decided that from now on i should keep my heart as honest as the children's and as brave as Douding's when i face any kinds of difficulties. Here i hope you to watch and enjoy this movie and also learn something from it.

My God!You will never know how difficult a job is until you do it! Even the job is just copying some articles from one place to another. I feel exhausted now.  

While anyway i finish it now. To congratulate myself for this...  TIME FOR LUNCH~~~NOW！！ 

  在寻找爱的道路上，更多的是看到一个个男孩面对自己深爱女孩的手足无措，紧张和木然。不知道怎样去向深爱的她去表达，害怕自己不够帅，或者不够好，总是没有勇气和信心去面对深爱的她。而现实往往会因为他们的“木讷”而失去自己一生的真爱。面对他们的痛苦和遗憾，只想告诉他们，其实你们不了解女孩，其实女孩的要求真的只有那么少！！   

  她不在乎你有多高大。她不会要求你有多么伟岸，她需要的只是个依靠，女孩子都是水晶作的，看着漂亮其实很脆弱，她只需要在自己内心失落的时候，在遭受挫折的时候有一个宽厚的肩膀让自己依靠，给自己安慰就足够了。  

  她不在乎你对时尚多么的了解。她只需要在逛街的时候，有你陪着她，并不需要你给她多么专业的参考，只是在试衣服的时候，说一句“你穿这件衣服比别人漂亮”她的心就会很欣慰。  

  她不在乎你有多帅。她不在乎你长的多么象明星脸，只需要你们在四目对望的时候，你的一句“宝贝你在我眼中是最漂亮的”她就会很感动！  

  她不在乎你很多有钱。她不会在乎你暂时有多少存款，她不会在乎你为她买什么，只会在乎情人节的时候，哪怕你给她买一朵玫瑰，亲自送到她的手上，她就会很感动。只会在乎你们之间特殊节日的时候，你给她一点点的惊喜，哪怕花很少的钱，她就会很满足。  

  她不在乎你多么的能贫。她不在乎你的口才有多好，只在乎你能勇敢的说出那三个字，她不在乎你上通天文下通地理，只在乎，在她不开心的时候，你能用几句幽默让她所有的不愉快释然解脱，重新破涕为笑。   

  她不在乎你离她有多远。她不在乎你因为工作而距离她多远。她只在乎当你忙完工作，闲暇的时候能给她一句问候“宝贝，我想你了”让她知道你多么在乎她，她就会为这份感情而甜蜜，为这份爱而温暖。   

  她不在乎......,她不在乎......,她不在乎很多很多,所有的一切都是只在乎你有多爱她,只在乎你能表达你的爱.女孩子是天使,天生都是善良的,她们的出现让男孩的世界富有温情和甜蜜.所以当你爱她的时候,不要去考虑那么多,只要能疼她,爱她,呵护她,那么你就是个幸福的男生!希望勇敢的男人们,面对自己所爱的人时候,不要再那么的"木讷",勇敢的说出来,幸福就在眼前.其实女孩的要求真的只有那么少!

 一个晚上  

 女孩终于鼓起勇气对男孩说：「我们分手吧」  

 男孩问：「为什么？」  

 女孩说：「倦了，就不需要理由了」  


 男孩只抽烟不说话  

 女孩的心也越来越凉  
  
 『连挽留都不会表达的情人  

 能给我什么样的快乐？』  

 过了许久  

 男孩终忍不住说：「怎么做你才能留下来？」  

 女孩慢慢地说：  

 「回答一个问题，如果你能答出我心里的答案，我就留下来。」   

   

 「比如我非常喜欢悬崖上的一朵花，而你去摘的结果是百分之百  

 的死亡，你会不会摘给我？」  

 男孩想了想说：「明天早晨告诉你答案好吗？」  

 女孩的心顿时灰了下来   

   

 早晨醒来，男孩已经不在  

 只有一张写满字的纸压在温热的牛奶杯下  

 第一行，就让女孩的心凉透了  

 「亲爱的，我不会去摘  

 但请容许我陈述不去摘的理由  

 你只会用电脑打字  

 却总把程序弄得一塌糊涂  

 然后对着键盘哭  

 我要留着手指给你整理程序  

 你出门总是忘记带钥匙  

 我要留着双脚跑回来给你开门  

 酷爱旅游的你  

 在自己的城市里都常常迷路  

 我要留着眼睛给你带路  

 好朋友光临时  

 你总是全身冰凉，还肚子疼  

 我要留着掌心温暖你的小腹  

 你不爱出门  

 我担心你会患上自闭症  

 我要留着嘴巴躯赶你的寂寞  

 你总是盯着电脑  

 眼睛给糟蹋得已不是太好了  

 我要好好活着  

 等你老了  

 给你修剪指甲  

 帮你拔掉让你懊恼的白发  

 拉着你的手  

 在海边享受美好的阳光和柔软的沙滩  

 告诉你一朵朵花的颜色  

 像你青春的脸…  

 所以  

 在我不能确定有人比我更爱你以前  

 我不想去摘那朵花…」  

 （女孩泪滴在纸上  

 形成晶莹的花朵）  

 抹净眼泪，女孩继续往下看：  

 「亲爱的  

 如果你已经看完了  

 答案还让你满意的话  

 请你开门吧  

 我正站在门外  

 手里提着你最喜欢吃的鲜奶面包…」  

 女孩拉开门  

 看见他的脸  

 紧张得像个孩子  

 只会把拧着面包的手在她眼前晃   

   

 我想这就是爱情或者生活  

 被幸福平静的包围时  

 一些平凡的爱意  

 总被渴望激情和浪漫的心忽略  

 爱！在双方引起的许多个微不足道的动作里，  

 从来就没有固定的模式  

 只有爱  

 可以是任何一种平淡无奇的形式  

 花朵、浪漫  

 不过是浮在生活表面的浅浅点缀  

 在它们的下面才是我们真真的生活. 

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不知道为什么好像不是链接的，可是大家一定要看呀！很好玩儿的！那个九张脸的我看到了!早就说我很聪明了嘛~~果然如此！

1.夏日炎炎的一天,两只香蕉走在路上.   

  走在前面的香蕉突然觉得好热,他说,好热哦,我要把衣服脱掉.   
  
  结果他就把皮给剥掉了.   

  结果后面的香蕉就跌倒了.

2.两个手指摆个V,是什么?是耶~~手抖抖抖往下伸,是什么?是落叶!

3.从前有只小羊，有天他出去玩，结果碰上了大灰狼。  

  大灰狼说：“我要吃了你！！！”  

  你们猜，怎么了？  

  结果大灰狼就把小羊吃了 

4.狼、老虎和狮子谁玩游戏一定会被淘汰? 狼，因为：桃太郎（淘汰狼）  

5.小明新理了发，第二天来到学校，同学们看到他的新发型，笑道：小明，你的头型好像个

  风筝哦！小明觉得很委屈，就跑到外面哭。。哭着哭着。。他就飞起来了。。 

6.石头和年糕打架,一生气就把年糕踢到大海里了...  

  讲个故事,从前有一对恋人私定终生,但是男生需要服兵役,便和女生定下誓言,给了女生一
  枚钻石戒,并许诺在三年后的今天与那女生碰面,到时候,那枚戒指作为婚戒. 好不容易3年
  过去了,女生一直在等男生,却一直等不到,她伤心过度,绝望的她把钻戒扔入大海,远走他
  乡.可是,那男生其实也一直在等那女孩,可是,女孩误解了约会地点,于是便永远的成为了遗
  憾.男生伤心欲绝...过了几年,男生出外钓鱼,猜猜看他钓到了什么?  

  年糕! 

昨天我去了国家博物馆，觉得受益匪浅呀~~没有去那里之前只知道中国地大物博，去过了之后才晓得什么是地大物博呀。国博里面很大一部分面积是非物质文化展馆在那里我看到了整个中国！在那些组图中，有很多东西深深的震撼着我的心，比如有一组是讲中国人有拍全家福的习惯，回来以后还有和室友讨论说中国人有很强的家族意识，喜欢所有的成员在一起，也因为这样才会有了春节，中秋这样一个又一个的团圆节吧。比较起来外国人好像没有这样的传统，噢，或许韩国人比较像中国。
除了这个还有国博里还有一个地方值得一提，那就是中国蜡像馆。虽然比不了伦敦的蜡像馆那么知名，可是对于我这样第一次看蜡像的人来说，已经足够震撼了，呵呵...要是你们想去的话我鼎力推荐，一定要看老子！！！他手上的皮肤做的像真的一样！！！
其实昨天给我感触最深的是在三楼精品展馆里听的一个近一个小时的解说。那位解说员大约50多岁，我不知道她在国博的这个展厅讲了多久才可以做到如此形神贯通，错落有序，从第一件展品到最后一件讲的是一脉相承，滔滔不绝，给人以身临其境的感觉呀。除了她的敬业之外，还有一点给我的印象更深刻。解说员在讲到中国的传统的时候很有感触地说：“我们不应该总说我的祖先比你们的强，而应该更多的想想我们究竟能为我们的祖国做点什么。”
老人家讲的很对，其实有的时候这样现象就发生在我自己的身上，就好像总喜欢会想过去的种种好，却很少考虑现在该做什么。从国博回来之后我一直在想，也许我一点都不比别人笨，只是我缺少一种承担自己未来的勇气。这对我来说也许不容易，可是我还是要使劲的给自己喊着加油，让自己变得坚强，然后告诉别人--我的未来不是梦！！
国博是一个值得一去的地方，搭地铁到天安门东下从D口出即是，现在周五下午持学生证可免费参观，各厅解说大约从2：30开始，想去的话是个好机会。（2006-3-11）